~Nightshade-Phantom

For once I will not have a stupid, dramatic, pity party post- yay! I would just like to know if anyone knows how to take images of their computer screen. I see a lot of people taking pics of their desktops and a friend of mine said I just need to press a few keys to take a picture my desktop. However, does it only take a picture of your desktop? I would like to know how to do this so I can takepictures of scenes from DVds- I swear, I only do it to get poses and facial expressions for my drawings. If anyone knows how to do this or knows someone else who does please let me know. I hate taking pictures of my screen using a digital camera because it's always glarey or there are these annoying lines in the picture or the lighting is bad.

I AM

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday.

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the teen told to shut up because "It's all just a phase"

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of 27 years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMT’s stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I’m a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”.

If you believe that homophobia is wrong...repost this
If you find this distrubring...so do I
If this made you feel for another there may be hope
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I just wanted to add that as I was reading this it reminded me of a poem I had to write in my English class my senior year that was very muh in this style (every line starting with I am). In my poem I confessed that I was bisexual (lesbian now) but because it was an assignment I had to turn in I was afraid it would be "inappropriate". But when I showed it to my teacher she said it was fine and I didn't need to be afraid. When you attneded a high school that was the only one in it's district to not have a GSA (Gay Straight Alliance) on campus you get scared about those things.

My mom keeps getting on my case to find a job. I've been applying everywhere I can submit a paper application or waste half an hour filling one out online. But hey, who wants to hire a girl with zero work experience with the exception of putting flyers on people's doors?Or a girl who has a license but no car? I could still get rides and show up on time but noooooooo, no one wants to take that risk....which, I can understand. But darn it- I've been looking for work since I started college a year and a half ago and no one wants to hire me. All my friends have jobs and my mom and I are barely scraping by. I know less motivated people that have jobs for Pete's sake! I just feel like I'm failing at life. One of they successes to life is getting a job and I'm not good enough apperently- even during the frickin' holidays when department stores need as much help as they can get. Oh wellif I die anytime soon then I don't have to worry about getting a job anymore at least.

It's only 11: 14 am and already this day has gone down the toilet. To start with, the Post Office is too freakin' expensive! I need to get a new passport ASAP and I didn't have enough money to buy a new one WITH a photo. I'm 15 feakin' dollars short and I'm leaving for Italy in 7 months! *screams*

This connects to stress factor number 2: I've been job hunting since I turned 15 1/2. I'm 19 and STILL jobless- can't get anything part time! I came so close last Monday at a Me-n-Ed's but because I live so far from it and I don't have my own car they manager has me on last priority for hiring but recomended me to another one close to where I live. I'm praying my heart out they hire me otherwise I'm broke for the holidays and funds toward my own car will continue to be in Limbo. my mom really wants me to get a job. I really want me to get a job but with no prior work experience and a nearly useless license things aren't looking too good. Even to busy retail stores don't seem to want me.

I'm balling my eyes out here like a banshee and wishing I wasn't. It's times like this I wish I had a girlfriend to be hugged and cuddled by and to cry on her shoulder. But of course all the fem lesbians with my interests have to live on the other side of the country or at least 500 miles from me. Freakin' Manifest Destiny- I hate you!...Not that California isn't a cool place to live...*sighs* Okay, I'm done ranting and getting things off my chest now, time to add on more holiday poundage *bangs head on coffee table*

Woot, first journal entry! I just want to wish everyone a happy Coming Out Day and to commemorate I will read the shirt I'm wearing now. "I heart girls." May all other openly non heterosexuals be having a wonderful day and those that are still in the closest find the strength, love, and support to be true to themselves and others. *blows kisses to everyone*