It's only 11: 14 am and already this day has gone down the toilet. To start with, the Post Office is too freakin' expensive! I need to get a new passport ASAP and I didn't have enough money to buy a new one WITH a photo. I'm 15 feakin' dollars short and I'm leaving for Italy in 7 months! *screams*

This connects to stress factor number 2: I've been job hunting since I turned 15 1/2. I'm 19 and STILL jobless- can't get anything part time! I came so close last Monday at a Me-n-Ed's but because I live so far from it and I don't have my own car they manager has me on last priority for hiring but recomended me to another one close to where I live. I'm praying my heart out they hire me otherwise I'm broke for the holidays and funds toward my own car will continue to be in Limbo. my mom really wants me to get a job. I really want me to get a job but with no prior work experience and a nearly useless license things aren't looking too good. Even to busy retail stores don't seem to want me.

I'm balling my eyes out here like a banshee and wishing I wasn't. It's times like this I wish I had a girlfriend to be hugged and cuddled by and to cry on her shoulder. But of course all the fem lesbians with my interests have to live on the other side of the country or at least 500 miles from me. Freakin' Manifest Destiny- I hate you!...Not that California isn't a cool place to live...*sighs* Okay, I'm done ranting and getting things off my chest now, time to add on more holiday poundage *bangs head on coffee table*